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Mourning Ritual / Daily Mantra

Day 2
Mourning Ritual

I decided to sit and hold Pearl's blanket. The purple one. The one they wrapped her in to hand her to us. It seemed so "normal", just my baby, in a baby blanket. I held that blanket and tried to close my eyes and meditate on how I want this day to be. I couldn't though. I tried to calm myself, and smooth out my breaths but instead, the tears came. That blanket must be very salty by now. I held it to my face. I realized it doesn't smell like her anymore... it used to smell like medicine,  hospitals..  that was her smell. Now, it smells like our home. My meditation was not very successful. :(

Day 3
Daily Mantra

The one I came up with is one that I see everyday. I got a dragonfly pendant to remind me of Pearl. Its hanging in my car. It reminds me: Enjoy Today
Because, holy crap... this might be the last 'today' you'll get.

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