Bella Luna / For the First Time

Day 6 Bella Luna

Full moon rising. The moon already makes me think of Pearl. Her middle name is Moon. Also, the girls' birthday fell on a day with a lunar eclipse. I often look up at the moon, full or otherwise, and think about Pearl. I imagine that she is up there, looking down at us. It's my little way to say "hi." For that reason, I will always associate the moon with my sweet baby. This is already a personal tradition. Maybe we can start a tradition of sitting outside on a full moon night and having a cup of coffee/cocoa, basking in the moonlight.

Day 7 For the First Time

A challenge to do something new, for the first time. This weekend we have family in town, and one of the first is meeting my niece Ashlyn. She is Lennon's age, a little bit older, and quite adorable! Another first was going with them to Linder farms. I loved watching them enjoy the day and exploring. They had fun on the little rides and especially going down the big slide. I love watching children experience things that are new to them, and feeling the excitement of what it was like when we were little. I'm excited to see the world through Lennon and Loie's eyes each day.

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