What I would tell you about Lennon, if you wanted to know... and I hope you do!
Lennon is a beautiful and sensitive soul. He hates wearing too many clothes. Especially socks. He always wants to eat carrots, but they make him gag every time. He says "bye bye" anytime he is feeling sad, disappointed or anxious... I guess it's his way of letting you know he doesn't like what's going on. When he starts to cry, he tells himself, "it's Okay..." in between sobs.
His memory, is incredible. He memorizes songs, lines from commercials, jingles, and the order of things.. keeps them all in place in his mind, and can retrieve them whenever he wants to. He sees the opening of the "Color Crew" show, and even though, to me, they all look exactly the same, he somehow knows this episode, is the episode about "brown." He repeats. -ESPECIALLY when it's something he really shouldn't be saying... He has ZERO sense of volume control.
He loves to watch you, watching a video that he enjoys. Sharing his interests with his family is very important to him. He hides from the liberty mutual commercials- like, drops down on the ground, behind cover, when the ads start. He can ask for some things, like, "up" "again" "bathtime" "goodnight" and "outside".. you know, the essentials! He understands... much much more than we often give credit for. Sometimes, I'll catch him patting Loie gently on the head, or holding onto her foot or hand, while she grins at him. He loves to watch his reflection or his shadow, while he moves, dances, waves his arms, and talks. Sometimes, he'll close his eyes really tight, and smile. I wonder what he's seeing....
Lennon's got JOKES! He picked up my underwear from the laundry basket one day, as I was putting clothes away, and he holds them up in front of him, and says, "A T- SHIRT!" At night, sometimes (okay, many times) I have to shush him, and remind him to "be quiet" because people are sleeping. Then, when he climbs the furniture, and I sternly say, "Lennon get down!" He doesn't miss a beat - he shushes me and says, "be quiet!"
Lennon doesn't sleep. He naps. Most nights he will wake up, full of energy, ready to start the "day," only he doesn't appreciate the fact that it's the middle of the night still. He'll get to giggling at something very specific in a video, and will watch it over and over, collapsing with laughter. He loves to make us laugh, too. He's a clown!
Lennon gives us lots of clues about what he's thinking and feeling, we just have to look hard for them, and put the clues together in the way he intends them. Sometimes it's easy, and other times, I feel like a failure as a mom. I want so badly to just be able to talk with him. Not to him. not about him, while he's right there, listening...absorbing. I want to know what his favorite animal is. I would guess the giraffe? I want to know what his favorite color is... blue? maybe yellow.... What does he want to eat? Where does he want to go? Is he lonely? Why is he crying? Does he understand,- that when I have to walk out the front door, and he's so upset, he's being held back, physically, while he screams at the top of his lungs, hitting himself on the head.- that I'll be coming back... Or does he really think each time, that I'm leaving forever? Does he understand danger? Why does he run off, or crumple to the floor when we go out somewhere? Is the world too much for him sometimes? Will other people love him... will other people make the effort to understand him. . .Will he have friends? Because of Lennon, I look at people differently. I look at the world differently. I feel more. I fear more. I don't know a world without our Lennon, and I don't want to. He provides that fresh outlook, and the laugh to relieve the tension throughout the day. He gives love unconditionally, and asks for virtually nothing in return. He makes everyone smile, with his silly moves and expressive face. His big, brown eyes make it IMPOSSIBLE to stay mad at him. And when he cries, he always tells himself... or maybe he's assuring us.... "It's Okay."
This is Lennon. This is our boy. Or a very small glimpse of our boy, who has created a world for us, that we have the privilege of sharing with him, every day. :)
Lennon is a beautiful and sensitive soul. He hates wearing too many clothes. Especially socks. He always wants to eat carrots, but they make him gag every time. He says "bye bye" anytime he is feeling sad, disappointed or anxious... I guess it's his way of letting you know he doesn't like what's going on. When he starts to cry, he tells himself, "it's Okay..." in between sobs.
His memory, is incredible. He memorizes songs, lines from commercials, jingles, and the order of things.. keeps them all in place in his mind, and can retrieve them whenever he wants to. He sees the opening of the "Color Crew" show, and even though, to me, they all look exactly the same, he somehow knows this episode, is the episode about "brown." He repeats. -ESPECIALLY when it's something he really shouldn't be saying... He has ZERO sense of volume control.
He loves to watch you, watching a video that he enjoys. Sharing his interests with his family is very important to him. He hides from the liberty mutual commercials- like, drops down on the ground, behind cover, when the ads start. He can ask for some things, like, "up" "again" "bathtime" "goodnight" and "outside".. you know, the essentials! He understands... much much more than we often give credit for. Sometimes, I'll catch him patting Loie gently on the head, or holding onto her foot or hand, while she grins at him. He loves to watch his reflection or his shadow, while he moves, dances, waves his arms, and talks. Sometimes, he'll close his eyes really tight, and smile. I wonder what he's seeing....
Lennon's got JOKES! He picked up my underwear from the laundry basket one day, as I was putting clothes away, and he holds them up in front of him, and says, "A T- SHIRT!" At night, sometimes (okay, many times) I have to shush him, and remind him to "be quiet" because people are sleeping. Then, when he climbs the furniture, and I sternly say, "Lennon get down!" He doesn't miss a beat - he shushes me and says, "be quiet!"
Lennon doesn't sleep. He naps. Most nights he will wake up, full of energy, ready to start the "day," only he doesn't appreciate the fact that it's the middle of the night still. He'll get to giggling at something very specific in a video, and will watch it over and over, collapsing with laughter. He loves to make us laugh, too. He's a clown!
Lennon gives us lots of clues about what he's thinking and feeling, we just have to look hard for them, and put the clues together in the way he intends them. Sometimes it's easy, and other times, I feel like a failure as a mom. I want so badly to just be able to talk with him. Not to him. not about him, while he's right there, listening...absorbing. I want to know what his favorite animal is. I would guess the giraffe? I want to know what his favorite color is... blue? maybe yellow.... What does he want to eat? Where does he want to go? Is he lonely? Why is he crying? Does he understand,- that when I have to walk out the front door, and he's so upset, he's being held back, physically, while he screams at the top of his lungs, hitting himself on the head.- that I'll be coming back... Or does he really think each time, that I'm leaving forever? Does he understand danger? Why does he run off, or crumple to the floor when we go out somewhere? Is the world too much for him sometimes? Will other people love him... will other people make the effort to understand him. . .Will he have friends? Because of Lennon, I look at people differently. I look at the world differently. I feel more. I fear more. I don't know a world without our Lennon, and I don't want to. He provides that fresh outlook, and the laugh to relieve the tension throughout the day. He gives love unconditionally, and asks for virtually nothing in return. He makes everyone smile, with his silly moves and expressive face. His big, brown eyes make it IMPOSSIBLE to stay mad at him. And when he cries, he always tells himself... or maybe he's assuring us.... "It's Okay."
This is Lennon. This is our boy. Or a very small glimpse of our boy, who has created a world for us, that we have the privilege of sharing with him, every day. :)
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